"The Unexpected"

Look at my smirk
I am trying to look happy,lol

My God,where do I start?O.K.So most of you probably already know me or watched a video or two of mine on youtube,so you guys know that I have 2 girls.I didn't share any part of my first pregnancy with internet audience but I did vlog with my 2nd pregnancy and it was so amazing watching other people's videos and sharing experiences with them.I met so many girls and made friends with them from Youtube.Also,documenting the process of the journey is rewarding as well because later on you look back and you see how much you weighed before and after,the belly growth,the change during the pregnancy.I enjoyed doing it.

Recently we moved and with moving comes stress_ton of stress.It was hard,tiring and I was so exhausted.That is one of the reasons I didn't post a Youtube video for a long time and I'm sorry for that.In a month or so after my menstrual period I started feeling really weak and I thought it was because I was so over exhausted,but I had some symptoms that were bugging me.

 SYMPTOMS OF PREGNANCY(IN MY CASE)
1.Heartburn(I get really bad one when pregnant)
2.Burping every second
3.Shoe size(my feet grow a whole size)
4.Headaches(massive migranes OMG)
5.Temper/aggressiveness/tantrums(I become vicious )
6.Tiredness/sleepiness
7.Sensitivity to all kinds of smells/odors(I was even nauseous from cookie smell)
8.Often bathroom visits(felt heavy bladder all the time)
9.Pimples all over my face(I broke out really badly this time)
10.Mood swings(one minute i would be happy,the next minute i would cry for no reason)

I think I covered most of my signs but if I missed any I'll add later.So,anyway everyone around me were like "You're pregnant" but I was denying it because i was not ready for it,we didn't even settle in,the neighborhood was new,I was unaware of anything yet .Where would I go for checkups?Who would take me?My husband was still working in our old town and staying there for the whole week,I would only see him on weekends.My minds was spinning around like crazy,i felt so helpless for the first time in my life.But at the moment I still didn't know if I was pregnant or not.
My niece,my sis-in -law and my mom-in-law kept saying you are definitely pregnant and i was so furious at them for saying it.They kept saying do a preg.test.I still had one home test from my previous pregnancy but i preferred not to know.Days passed and my curiosity grew bigger and bigger,so I finally took the test out and skeptically went to bathroom.It was around 11:30pm.I put the test flat on the sink and didn't even have to wait KABOOM the line of positive indicator showed me what I already knew deep down but was rejecting all this time.I Was Pregnant.Was I sad at that moment?Yes.Was I worried?Yes.I had 2 C-Sections and recovery from those were horrible,so going through all that again was too much for me.I would say I had a spark in me but the stress was overwhelming.It took me a while like couple of weeks to pull myself back up.  The headaches,the heartburn,dizziness were killing me.But the home test was not enough for me I had to go to doctor to confirm it with hospital test which I did and I was 8 weeks pregnant.Ta-Da.